Long time away, where has the fatfitman been?

Ever find it hard to own up to something? Made a mistake and now you're stuck trying to hide from it. Even if the hiding is pointless, if everyone around you can see the mistake, or if the hiding itself is a dead giveaway that you've screwed up.

That's me since April 28th.

So what happened? Well, let's take it in turn.

5K run - Didn't happen, I injured my back in April and it curtailed my running plans to nothing. On doctors advice I stopped my running training until I lost some more weight (more on that in a minute).

So, my running is down, ok, what do you do when your plans go awry? You pick yourself up and you try something else. So I did, I attacked the P90X program and tried to make that my major exercise plan.

And then I injured my wrist. Couldn't bend my right hand for a few months.

So that's 2 strikes. How do I recover, I pick myself up again and find a way, I lower my calorie counts, I find some way to keep moving.

Boy I wish I could say I did that.

Nope

I ate, and ate, and ate some more. I got lazy, I stopped trying, I stopped blogging, I stopped believing.

I just plain stopped.

I quit.

And so here we are, November 8th. Almost 11 months from my start at 272 lbs, and I am 265.

It's so easy to get down, so easy to say forget it. So easy to look at the holidays coming, the challenges I faced and just give up until January. 

But I am not going to do that. Missing my goals is bad, giving up entirely would be far worse.

I can't change what happened April to November, I can't change that I stopped, I can't change that I hid from it (and from all of you), I can't change that it was the wrong thing to do.

But I can change what I do today, and tomorrow, and from here on.

Change with me, come back to the blog, come back to your own challenges, change what's nagging you.

You'll be happier for it.

fatfitman

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