Day 2 - It's more than the scale.

I want to clear something up.

This is not about weight and weight alone.

When this blog started back in January of 2010 (that long ago, wow) I set two goals, one was a weight loss one, the other a performance one.

But over time I've realized it is about way more than that. It's about a journey. Trying to get back to being a person I remember. Active, happy, friendly, confident. And while I'm at it, lets make some improvements about me along the way.

Why both?  Ever heard "you can't love another unless you love yourself?"

What if you don't like who you've become? What if you can't identify with the guy in the mirror?  Can you still love others? Can you truly act towards the rest of the world in a decent manner if you are mad at yourself?

Probably not.

I'm a decent guy, at least I like to think I am. But as I have become less happy with me, its become harder to keep that going. I'm less patient, less caring, quicker to anger and frustrate.

Will losing weight cure it?  Maybe, but what if the weight loss is slow? How will I react?

That's why its key I'm measuring things other than weight. I have other numbers. Inches, performance in physical tests. All designed to show me progress in case that bathroom bearer of bad news, the scale, decides to annoy me.

But it even goes beyond that.  I finished my workout tonight (TRX and weights for about 45min), and yes I was tired, yes a little sore. Very sweaty.

And one other very strong feeling when I finished....Powerful

I felt like I could take on the world. I felt energized by the idea of doing this for 100 days. I felt amazing.

I felt, like I always used to.

I could get used to that. I know not every day will be like today. I know there are hard days waiting out there.

But if that's the price I pay to go back to feeling strong, confident, happy. If that's the price I pay the price I pay to stop feeling mad at myself, and regain the patience, caring and calmness I used to be known for.

If that's the price, I'm ready to pay it.

Its not just the weight, its not just the inches, its not just the measures.

It's the feeling I am doing something about it. 100 days of "acting on life instead of reacting to it." That's the biggest victory I'll have

The victory of trying, of persevering, of not sitting down and letting it happen.

100 days of action...Join me for them.

Today's workout

45 minutes of TRX and Weights
1Km on Rower

Calories Eaten - 2027
Calories Burned - 3562

See you tomorrow!